all good things must end...

The signs were all there. But we ignore signs.. don't we.. The jealousy. The 5000 questions about guys that comment on your facebook. The whining about how far it is to drive for a visit. The slow, steady pulling away... But I was in love!!! So none of that mattered, right? The highs outweighed the lows. I was happy. SO SO SO happy. Ignoring my friends happy. Not even noticing the cute guy that delivers our water at work (and I used to shamelessly flirt with) happy. We would text or chat all day every day. We called each other "baby". He made me love a Southern accent. He made me love him, against all reason and argument. I told him it wouldn't work. He promised me he would make sure it did.

His reasons were exactly what he's been saying, as he's removed himself from me the last few weeks. "It's too hard, being so far apart." "This isn't working. And it's never going to work." "You deserve everything. Not someone you only see 2-3 times a month." "I love you. But I hate this."

That's the worst one. "I love you but..." worst thing you can say to someone, ever. So you love me. Great. But not enough to work it out. Not enough. Another in a long line of disappointments from men.

...breathe and delete...